turning over a new leafFFF

I feel like giving up.... I'm tired. I will not give up . I will keep pushing toward through the depression and the anxiety. I will make of life what I want of it, filling my home with beauty! Playing my cards that I have been dealt. Good night all maybe I'll feel better in the morning. Angels whatch you all though the night until the birds first morning flight. A new day may they guide your way! Many Blessings. Good night!

Well here I go again, getting ready to start a new chapter in my life. I am quitting my job as a cashier to help a friend do a herbal beauty products and such. My husband is getting to go on a new journey of his own , being hired online business.  I hope we both do well! I am still going to keep writing tho as it is really my true passion. Working on taking a vacation before it all hits us. I cant wait for a week at the beach, then to come home and work on my home and family. Much Love and Light Everyone. Peace

Ok peeps carry this along to anyone who would be interested in having me write for them. Anyone with connections?? I REALLY wanna write for a living.  I am so tired of having to go to a job that is tolerable, and miss out on my family! I wanna enjoy this beautiful day. I want to pick up my yard and enjoy watching my kids play outside. I want to plant flowers and make dinner for my family. I hate having to leave them. I love them soooo much and it sickens me to have to leave, dang it. Well lets get myself together and go to work. :( UGH  Check out my sister site http://pheonixdawn.blogspot.com/

Its a  dull dreary morning here in WV.  I am pretty sure it is going to rain but that is OK! We need the rain for our flowers to flourish. I can say I do love spring its my second favorite season. . I cant wait for all the flowers to start opening up showing off their spring colors. Tulip, daffodil, Lilly, and forget me not all remind me of spring memories...and gardens! I Love LOVE LUV fresh lettuce and spring onions with bacon grease on them, YUMMY in my tummy. Im sure your health food freaks would frown down upon this but its once a year and well OK ok there is no excuse but its really yummy. It is now time to go make some coffee and wake up for the rest of the day. Good Morning Everyone have a Great Day! 

So today I was going to have a ultrasound to see if I had any cysts on my ovaries because my pelvic joints have been hurting since around the end of NOV beginning of Dec. The car had and I say HAD been doing very well...  Well we get to going up the mountain and give it all shes got the pedal to the floor and again nothing above 20 or 30 mph. I had to reschedule my appt. I swear I have tried everything I think I am just going to give up and go to church I mean right now what could it hurt what do I have to lose. Im just so tired and depressed and my anxiety is a mess. I can still be a domestic goddesss and go to church. Right? No approval needed actually cause as always Im going to do it my way anyways so as off this week I am going to start reading and following a different set of rules for myself. I need something.. Rant over! Boo Whoo But I have a roof over my head food in my fridge and pantry, and a job still soo... I am blessed. Thank you for your love and Light Angels and ma...

Today was a great day! We have been having a streak of bad luck lately: broke down car, sickness in the family , loss of jobs... but today I think is a turning point in our lives. The car that's been out of commission was finally fixed. The sickness is going away. The job loss is temporary, it will come soon, I am sure. My daughters modeling career is taking off. Life has a funny way of picking you up when your on rock bottom. I even put the upstairs to good use and put our Christmas tree up. See we have multiple animals. the cats I'm not so uptight about but the dogs Destroy Everything NEW soo upstairs Santa shall visit ! Its well past my bedtime and I need to take my meds LOL so Goodnight friends ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

OMG, my laptop came! I can now blog until my eyeballs pop out. LoL I just have to set it up. I. can. NoT. Wait. Oh lawd I can feel my life shifting from negative to positive and I LOVE IT!  I must say things are changing. Pics to come later, much love peeps have a wonderful day.

Music brings out all kinds of emotions. I like to listen to it while I clean, workout, and shower. Different music inspired different moods... cleaning for example starts with a little Screaming Death/Monster😆

Whoa. what a day. I woke up to kids screaming in my ear about clothes. My youngest was having a fit because she couldn't find something and said her sister was taking all the good clothes to her boyfriends house. Rolling my eyes I told my oldest to dump her bag and surly she did have some clothes but not the ones my youngest was complaining about. So my oldest pulls the youngest hair and she cries. Those kids do not know how  close they are sometimes to me beating them with the ugly stick, as my grandma used to say! We decided to  go to my mom and dads today and finally got there and on the way the youngest had to have my phone so she could play pokemon.She is totally obsessed with it. I admit this day didn't start out so well but... Its OK. However I do have to leave them and go to work at 530 because I have to work 6 to 11 soo but it is what it is I guess. I think I am going to apply for a credit card so I will have money to pay my bills nxt month. I will pay it back in tim...

I know it is late but.... I just wanted to start anew! It has been awhile since I have been on here. Since I have been on here alot has changed. I am currently holding down a cashier job at Speedway in a neighboring town. My daughters are now 10 an 16,wow where have the years went! I have more cats and more dogs now and I want to kill them all because all they do is chew things.  On top of that they are not fixed because I can not afford that at the current time, so I am constantly trying to get rid of puppies and kitties. I used to love animals, Now not so much. My husband lost his job in an unfortunate turn of events. He stays at home with the kiddos and tends to them when I am not home. We are far from perfect but we are surviving. Thankfully we just qualified for food stamps and medicade cards. I can not believe how much our prescriptions and visits to the drs are now Practically Nothing, no wonder no one wants to work in this society. I guess the goverment pays for ...

So I am sopposed to have this Special book n the mail that will help me apply the things I need in my life better. I cannot wait Cannot Come on already Ive been waiting for like two weeks now I want my book I want to change and start my journey but I donot want to take the leap til I get my book Maybe patience maybe its teaching me patience LOL well Im waiting Anxiously Wanting money I swear this is all this is is a scam Well I have no money to give unless of course U somehow make me rich then THEN I will have money for U Srry! Well that book I have raved about, yeah,  that was a big blow up!   Should have known things never come easy.  You actually have to work for them!  Scam SCAM ScAM Oh wel, l lesson learned.  I am now working as a cashier at Speedway.   I will be updating My blogger do some editing  and post  some pics.   I am thinking about renewing my nail tech license  so I can start doing nails ...

As I write this, I KNOW I will make someone mad. I've been watching the news, and coverage of the bombing. Don't get me wrong, I think there are good & evil people everywhere. There are parts of our country who have turned away from God, and HIS values. I don't think God is CAUSING bad things to happen. What I do think, is that he is ALLOWING these things to happen, to bring people back to Him. A... sin is a sin to God...they're all bad. As a country, we ALLOW the people who lead our country to lie (sin), we allow people to murder (Casey Anthony), we allow lazy families to stay on welfare (sin), we allow people to cheat (also a sin), gay rights (also a sin)....needless to say I could go on FOREVER. I'm far from perfect, make mistakes all the time but, I have enough sense to know right from wrong. Each one of us should figure out where our values have came from. Do you have man's values? Or do you have Gods? Praying for BostonI did NOT write this it was a pos...

Nxt time I will not b answering my phone when my work calls Seriously one day they tell me to come n at one time the nxt day they call me and tell me I need u to come in early cuz bla bla bla it is virtually fn impossible to plan anythng with these people and they seem to think that u are at their freakin becon call Well Bitches nxt time I wont b answering my damn phone that way I will have my day to do with whatever I want I figured I do a lil worship with nature thn clean on my house a lil enjoy this beautiufl day but NO come in at 1230 instead of 4 they say Sure I have nothing else better to do its not like Im doing anything in the other hours that I was sopposed to b chilling and enjoying myself you strip it away from me I hate the place I work i am so done and looking for or going to invent a new freaking job for me to do cuz if u dont like ur job u are a miserable person and my heart tells me im not happy doing what I am doing I guess I am going to start out small then C how it g...

Sugar snap peas are awesome in taste and in nutrition! Go get u some spring is almost here I can feel it in the air, I cant wait! I almost cant digest the thought that is just around the corner. I'll leave u with this cuz well I have to clean some on hy home, Here is a link about sugar snap peas Much Love Sweeties

It was a beautiful day yesterday sunny not cold springy and I might have got to enjoy 2hrs and 30 min of it Until WRK 11-8 a long day. Today I wake up thinking it would b great if it was like it was yesterday and I could just go outside and enjoy this beautiufl day But NOOOO Its raining cold and windy and my body is aching bcuz all of the hard wrk I did yesterday. Yesterday we had a load of trees come in and I was all excited becuz I wrk in the hardware dept and I get to check them all in UNTIL I realized that there was only one stock clerk cause we are short or should I say the company is tooo cheap to hire another in fear they might have to actually pay someone else to do a job that everybody else will do for practically free, C this is not in my description I am not sopposed to tug on the big heavy crap or have to unload and then put trees n a big cage But.... Oh and what baffles me is there is three managers there and only one helped out after we had almost everything out of the f...

I think its unfair that my daughter has to be told to toughen up all becuz some people wont punish their children for being mean. I mean really what kid calls another a pussy and gets away with it It pisses me off that someone just wont jerk the other kid up and spank them or take away all their fun stuff till they start acting correctly. Its a process that u have to do over and over I mean if they are mean then u tell them u wont get this till ur good again and Im not talking about 5 mins later when they are promising to be good and u know they are so not going to be they are just saying it so they can get their way manipulating the situation.So u are telling me that my kid has to start acting like a crazzy kid kicking and punching and saying mean and naughty things just so she can visit Thats Bullshit I tell u. Shes a lil girl little girls dont act like ThaT I fkn hate it its stupid I get it when ur parent works and ur left with a teenage brother all day maybe thats what u get MAYBE ...

I have been gone from blogger for awhile quick catch up my daughter the one since she has had her surgery still on some meds which they are weening her off of. She is currently cocaptin of her cheerleading team and loves it, and is making strait As in school. My other daughter is in the 1st grade making As and is an Aries need I say more lol Shes driving me crazy. Got a job in Feb it will do for now, I mean I have to have something one income is just not enough. It is not a job I want to keep for my whole lifetime but until I can start making photoposters and get some start up money for my Seasons Change craft/metaphysical shop it'll have to do. Its getting ready to be inventory time at my store and i'll be working 50 hrs fri-wed send me some energy PlZ I do not know how Im gonna make it thru. This job is killing me my bk swells and my feet hurt when I get up and hit the floor in the morning its like there is no padding in them. Dont get me wrong I like the people just hate th...

So sandy/frankenstorm sent us a snow storm that well took out our power and our water for a week. People wonder why I look at them with stupidity in my eyes when they say let it snow.Really peoplenot everyone is fortunate to have a generator batterypowered pks wood stoves gasoline or natural gas or a propane heater in an event of a superstorm. I really wish I could say what I wanted to say and I had all the facts but fact is I dont have power and water right now bcuz some dumb donkeys butt was not willing to comply with AEP request and if what I hear is true then OK u have the right to turn them dwn but if not well hen u are just as I said it a dumb donkeys butt becuz u allowed alot of people to go without power and water becuz ur a weird freak and I donot like u and it sickens me to know that there are people who would not help the whole! Now wth that said my familys halloween was in a cold house with a propane heater running NO not our house I am blessed to have a great family hi...